10.a.m.Doctor told me that they will get the result of PCR test on Monday and they will take my blood test on Tuesday to examine the level of one of the prescribed medicine. If everything goes in my favour, i will be released in less than 1 week.Four new things have been added in my 'to do' list and they will be there for atleast 2 months:

ORE 6:00 --> ISONIAZIDE 200mg --> 1cp + 1/2
RIFAMPICINA 600mg --> 1cp
ETAMBUTOLO 400mg --> 1cp
PIRALDINA 500mg --> 1cp

ORE 12:00 --> ETAMUTOLO 400mg --> 1cp
PIRALDINA 500mg --> 1cp
BENADON --> 1cp

ORE 18:00 --> ETAMBUTOLO 400mg --> 1cp
PIRALDINA 500mg --> 1cp

ORE 24:00 --> ETAMBUTOLO 400mg --> 1cp
PIRALDINA 500mg --> 1cp

4 p.m. I just wrote a poem!! Here it goes :


kaidi se suraj ka vaada!

suraj ka mujhse vaada tha
aaj meri gaalon pe chamkega
par badalon ka uspe ghera hai
aur dur dur andhera hai
badalon ko chhaat diye hota
aur suraj muskaan liye hota
par muthhi bhiche reh jaata hoon
kaidi hone ka shok manaata hoon.

10 p.m. Sleepy..Sleepy..Zzzzz..

10:30 a.m. I need a shower!! and I no more feel lonely.Afterall there are 'n' number of things to do being all alone and each single thing can be done in 'n' different ways.. Ahh. so n*n different ways of spending a day.Moreover when i think about people who spends years and years in koma,rishi/maharshi who spends decade doing tapasya and Ninja Kirigi who spent more than 100 years in loneliness,doing saadhna(for more info, read : Kirigi ka Kahar),I feel,I am in pretty well situation ;).
11:00 a.m. Just now a team of 5 doctors came to visit me.They have decided to start the treatment process.I will have to take 4 different type of Pills.3 antibiotics and 1 vitamin.
One of the antibiotic will change the colors of tears,urine..almost all secretions.I asked them if they are sure that I am having TB? They said,they are 'quite sure'.
For being 100% sure they will have to rely on results of culturing.Culturing of sputum takes 2 months.
But..on saturday you were supposed to get the result of sputum test.Right?I asked.
Doctor:Yes..probably we will have the result on saturday but anyway we will have to start the treatment process now.
I think they are qualified enough to decide how should they treat me and I think they will get no pleasure in making me stay here for long.
I am going to take a shower!!
11 p.m.The sputum test result is negative!!! Just now 2 doctors came to inform me.Negative result means that TB is not contageous but..
Yes,they want to perform one more test,PCR test for being 100% sure.! which will take about one week time!.So in best case , I will be released after a week!
I have decided to buy Nokia N70!By sunday evening,I will have it!
Zzzzz..zzzz!

It's 9 a.m.
Everyday I get my breakfast around 8:15 a.m. and at 8:30 a.m., nurse comes for measuring my body temperature, blood pressure and heartbeat.Something interesting happened today morning.A nurse came and asked me : "fare in bagno per pu pu?" I got little idea about what she is asking about, but still..
Me: "Cosa e pu pu?"
Nurse:"fare in bagno per..." (and then she patted her butts) "chatt chatt"
Me: ha ha ha..si!:D
Today morning when I woke up,I was feeling unusual,lazy,weak.To get over this feeling,i jogged in my room.Now I am going to clear my backlogs of yesterday.
11 a.m. Time is moving at good pace.After a short spell of lazyness, i started working!Presently reading an ebook : "Understanding Stocks".Meanwhile I got to know from Doctor that my blood test was "OK" and my "sputum" test is going on.I will get to know the result on Saturday and then they will decide about my stay and treatment.
I personally feel that 'may be' I am having TB but its not the contageous one.I have my own reasons for thinking so.Anyways, medical science relies only on laboratory tests and I will have to keep patience.
10 a.m. 1st March, yesterday night, I was too lazy to complete my diary entry.I took heavy dinner: curd,pollo,salad,verdure,pane,pasta and then crashed on bed.Before sunset, i saw movie "After Sunset".Salma Hayek..mm.. I love her.!
I dreamt about yatching,Holi and then I cant remember the last dream I saw.I have got an ebook:The interpretation of dreams by sigmund freud but till now this ebook could not make an entry in my "to do" list.First,I have to complete "Understanding stocks" and then only can think of any other ebook.

10:35 a.m. I have made 'to do' list!! Here it is:

27/2
1. How to play .rm/.rmvb on linux?
2. prison break - season 2 - part 1.
3. Italian learning
4. Daily Diary
5. Read - comics - kirigi ka kahar
6. Start reading - God of small things
7. Take Bath
8. Learn 2 songs -lyrics!!
9. Jan vikalp - 1 page
10.Linux game!
11.Explore Linux!!
12.Movie-Golmaal!!
13.Siesta!
14.Physical Exercise

Probably I will add few more 'to do's' and probably I wont be able to do everything I wish to do today.I like the feeling of being busy.I have to make myself busy..Busy reading novels,learning Italian,talking on phone..Yeh,there are ways of making yourself busy even if you have been imprisoned!
This place is like prison infact worse than prison in few respects ;) .I cant move outside to breathe fresh air.I cannot meet fellow prisoners.Anyways,I dont want to bother myself by thinking about what I dont have and what I can't do.I have to keep myself happy and rocking and I know how to do that ;)
11:00 a.m. I got some more information about my health!
Doctor told me that it will take about a week time to be sure if I have contageous tuberclosis or non-contageous.Earlier this day,my blood sample was taken for the HIV,Hepatitis A,B test.I will get the result by today evening or by tomorrow morning.
Its 10 p.m. I am tuning myself to my environment.Pretty much successful in keeping myself away from the feeling of loneliness.As predicted,i could not do everything which i had scribbed in 'to do' list.Tomorrow I will get to know about Internet Connection.Still,I dont know for how long I will have to stay here.It gona be between 1 to 4 weeks.
I am feeling sleepy...
goodnight!

26th February..At around 9 a.m. I got to know that I will have to spend next 2-3 weeks of mine in hospital.May be a month.I wont be able to go to India in last week of March.Ahh. all plans got cancelled.
By 12 p.m, I was in Hospital,in an isolated room.You can enter inside only with your mask on,but I cant move outside of the room.For atleast next 2-3 days,strictly not allowed to do that.Reason-test result for tuberclosis was +ve in my case and now I will have to undergo intensive treatment.
I informed Papa,Mummy and Meenal about the case.They strengthened my determination to enjoy this treatment period inspite of getting nervous.Still I am concerned about mummy,she would be worried.Moms are like that.
It's 6 p.m.I spent last 6 hours in quasi loneliness.Got checked up by Nurses frequently.Tomorrow I will be scanned for viruses.HIV,Hepatitis -A,B..
Facilities in this hospital are superb, only concern is loneliness.Lets see how i deal with it in coming days.I have my music pill,lappy,Italian learning book and some phone cards with myself.I am curious to know how I will spend my coming days.Some phone calls from friends were like lifeline.Nainy recommended me "Tuesdays with morrie"-by Mitch Albon. Meenal made me feel better with her sweet voice.Bhabhi made me smile and Bhaiya gave me strength.
Thanks to Pavan,Yogesh,Calee,Angshuman da and Somnath for visiting me.
10 p.m. I am not feeling sleepy ..but i should sleep.

The love for writing, especially poems has something to do with hereditary in my case.Papa contributes to Dalit literature and baba,being a freedom fighter and associated with 'Arya Samaj' writes verses on 'desh prem' and society in general.

My saga for writing began at age of about 11 years when papa gave me a task of writing an essay on 'adhyayan'.He was more than happy to see a 10 page work by me.His compliments and motivation drove me thereafter.

After reading Papa's book: 'Kaaton ke bich',I realised that poems need not be beautified with alankar.All it needs is to have some content which can make long lasting impression.A poem should be capable of making a change,motivating junta,becoming a voice inspite of getting little applause for tukbandi and then getting lost in the mist of time.

To register my presence in the world of poetry, I sent my poems to Kshitij(a hindi quarterly published from US) ,Anubhuti-Hindi and started my own blog of Hindi poems : Aawaaj.
With Papa's help, my first book : 'Kshitij se aage' got published in August 2005.It was sweet surprise to get comments from Surendra Snigdh uncle and Ranjit uncle who are well known figures of Hindi literature of today.

Aawaaj is very much concerned with the plight of common man specially of those who suffers from social seclusion.Aawaaj is concerned with psychology of human being and is the mirror of the underground revolution which is going to change the social scenario of our nation.

Yesterday,i showed a video clip made by me,on the present state of Dalits in our country, to my friend.The facts datas and images in my clip shocked him.He was living with the prejudice that cesteism is no more practiced in India and social/economic status of Dalits has been improved to a pretty well position by Indian Government.
No wonder he is unaware of the ground reality.Afterall, who cares to enlighten people about the social and economic diversity which is still prevailing in our country?
Media?Times of India?Hindustan Times?The Hindu?Aaj tak? Star News?
None!!!They have no interest in this case.Rather they will like to focus on what Abhishek Bachhan will wear on his wedding day.
English men know much more about the social situation of our country than we Indians.Shame on you Indian Media!!!
Why the hell our mainstream media has kept its eyes closed?
Why the hell only 'feel good' news about our country are publicised?
Does government has no interest in preparing responsible citizens having courage to pay back to society?
I appreciate the spirit of our country because of which we made rapid economic growth in last 10-15 years but like you, I too dont want to forget about the problems which our country is facing.
Rich getting richer and poor getting poorer,will it anyway let our country run on the path of progress?
25% of population suffers from social seclusion and deprived of basic amenities,will our country ever be called prosperous?

what can be done?

Like you, I too want to think and talk about solution inspite of just highlighting the problem.Few solutions which I can think of are :

1.Sponsor education of a dalit child.An online way of doing this work :
www.dalitchild.com

2.Promote intercaste marriages to build a casteless society.

3.Promote affirmative action.If you are a recruiter, register your firm on:
http://www.firstequal.in/

4.Highlight the problem and let millions of mind think about the solution!Bombard the web world and ignite the minds with thought provoking articles.You are most welcome to join hands with me for building an alternative media.