9TH MARCH

PRISON BREAK


10TH MARCH


PRISON BREAK


11TH MARCH


Probably I will be released tomorrow.Last two weeks were like a season of self realisation.Got a good break.

12TH MARCH

2:30 p.m. Doctor came in my room, without wearing mask.I smiled.
She announced the end of my isolation period.
10:20 p.m. I am packing my stuffs.Tomorrow morning I will move to mio casa nel bertoni. :)

8 a.m. I opened my eyes with nothing in my mind.Left my bed for I was tired of sleeping.
9 a.m. When my girlfriend feels sick of me, she yells :"GO TO HELL!!!"
Well she dont know what hell is.None of you people do.Hell isnt getting beat up or clit up or hauled in front of some faggot jury. Hell is waking up every god damn morning and not knowing why you are even here.Why you are even breathing.
7:30 p.m. Whole day I kept watching Prison Break.If they gonna make Indian remake of PB, Sohail and Arbaaz Khan would be best alternative for Michael and Lincoln.whadya think guys?
After taking my dinner, I dressed myself for stepping out.I went outside the hospital premisis and then did some free walking.. ahmm.. ahmm.. like some background music is already there...chewing happydent ..taking deep breathes and free walking.
"Friends,just doing rehearsal for tomorrow's show!!"

12:41 p.m. Tutto bene!! Everything is alright! Bronchoscopy was very simple.And now I am hungry.Have not eaten anything in last 18 hours.
3 p.m. I am loosing interest in watching movies.Infact no movies which are worth watching are left.
7 p.m. I am stuck up with prison break.8 episodes so far.Going pretty well.
10 p.m. Diary writing aint a fun thing.Not at all interesting.Nothing can match the fun of walking on lonely roads.Like this :

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

ahmm..Now i have just two things to do:
1.Wait for the result of bronchoscopy
2.Keep watching prison break till i get bored.
..Since 10 days i am stuck in a room..240 hours!! gawd ..these stats boils the blood in my veins!! Emergency...I am moving to bed!!

8:45 a.m.They are 'tasting' my blood!!!!.
Since morning they have taken 7-8 syringes of my blood and probably they found it
'tasty' and so will continue taking samples for their 'taste' in coming hours.
I called my mummy to get some consolation from her.While she was trying to console me, she herself was nervous.Aww you cute mummy..:-* .Moms are like that!!
9:00 a.m. Just now they took one more sample.eeeeeee!!!
7:00 p.m. Whole day they kept sucking my blood!!
10 samples!!
and tomorrow - bronchoscopy!!
Mummy,save me!!!

12:45 a.m. Its too early to start a diary entry and too late for moving to bed.Should i go for a nite-out?I smiled at word 'out'.It gonna be a D day!Wether I can move out or not will be decided today!
Pink Floyd is doing magic on me.I am getting spellbounded..hypnotized..and now comfortably Numb..and finally feeling sleepy...ZzzzZzzz
10:30 a.m Not feeling well! Having loose motion!Breathing problem.No clue what should I do.:(
Doctor will come to visit me within half an hour.
6:00 p.m. I got to know about PCR test result.
Test result is negative... but.. but i will have to remain here for ..say another one week!
All of a sudden Doctor's professor came into picture and he adviced her to not let me go so easily..;) .I have got a hole in my lungs.Keeping in mind my xray report and the fact that I am an Indian (a country where Tuberclosis bacteria has adapted itself to many medicines),they have decided to do some severe tests(like putting a narrow pipe in my lungs to take the sample of sputum).
The good news is that now I can move outside my room with a mask!This evening, I went for a stroll and I saw sunset :)
So..my friends..this life is all about hopes.Hope drives us.High Hopes.Dead Hopes.New Hopes.
So my friends..finally..I will have to be here for atleast one more week.On the darker side :I will have to face bronchoscopy, on the brighter side: holiday for one more week!!

P.S.:Nokia N70!!! None of my friends went to Media World last weekend and so.......

10:30 a.m. Its my 7th day!! i.e. i am here since last 168 hours!!aww my gawd,one week has gone.I couldnt realise.I lived as if :
I am young and life is long
and there is time to kill today
and then one day I found
1 week has got behind me
no one told me when to run,I missed the starting gun.
11:00 a.m. Its Sunday! also.. 'Holi'Day! Happy Holi to all my dear ones!
Yesterday night, before sleeping I got some ideas which can be transformed into a presentation.New things will join the league of 'pay back to society'.Hows the name 'Second Truth'?
I need a shower!!!
12 a.m. From somewhere I got the food for creativity today!After completing initial work for my forthcoming presentations: 'second thought' and 'Babasaheb Ambedkar', I tried my hands on 'Gimp' and here is what i came up with : 'cheguev-arya'.
12:45 a.m. Listening to Pink Floyd..and not feeling like sleeping!But the day has gone.I should start scribbing in diary entry of 5th March!! Awrite!Owkay!Babye!

10:30 a.m. Good news are coming up!!!
Everyday at 10 a.m. Doctor comes to discuss my situation with me.Day after tomorrow they will conduct PCR test on my sputum specimen.And by Monday evening,they will get the result.In best case, they will let me go to India for 3 weeks!!
These days, I am studying "Understanding Stocks".After finishing it, i will 'try' to read 'Davinci's Code'.

2 p.m. Reading is not my cup of tea.Gave up!
Long long time ago , I can still remember..how that music use to make me smile and i knew that if had more chance then i can make those people dance and may be they be happy for a while.
Whatever be the question,the answer is music!
Rightnow I am thinking about my friends.Wish i could be in touch with all of them.
Shantanu,where can i find you now?
KT,you left smoking..right??
Hassan,Lets meet!!
Rohit,tell me about your latest scandal!!
Navneet,yaar..want to hug you..know why? ;)
Sunny,saale tu Nandini pe line maar raha hai na? :D
Aashish,is se pehle ki jawaani khatam ho jaaye,chal kahi bandibaaji kar aaye dost!
Prabhat,do you remember the night we spent together? ;)
Anunay,kaisa hai re?? I need to discuss my investment stratigies with you!
Kunal,kaisa hai apna team?Kumaresh,Nikhil,Cspn,Mickey,Nishant?
10 p.m. Now I have got realplayer for Linux and I can watch all .rm files!!
Thanks to Pawan!!
ZzzzZzz!

10.a.m.Doctor told me that they will get the result of PCR test on Monday and they will take my blood test on Tuesday to examine the level of one of the prescribed medicine. If everything goes in my favour, i will be released in less than 1 week.Four new things have been added in my 'to do' list and they will be there for atleast 2 months:

ORE 6:00 --> ISONIAZIDE 200mg --> 1cp + 1/2
RIFAMPICINA 600mg --> 1cp
ETAMBUTOLO 400mg --> 1cp
PIRALDINA 500mg --> 1cp

ORE 12:00 --> ETAMUTOLO 400mg --> 1cp
PIRALDINA 500mg --> 1cp
BENADON --> 1cp

ORE 18:00 --> ETAMBUTOLO 400mg --> 1cp
PIRALDINA 500mg --> 1cp

ORE 24:00 --> ETAMBUTOLO 400mg --> 1cp
PIRALDINA 500mg --> 1cp

4 p.m. I just wrote a poem!! Here it goes :


kaidi se suraj ka vaada!

suraj ka mujhse vaada tha
aaj meri gaalon pe chamkega
par badalon ka uspe ghera hai
aur dur dur andhera hai
badalon ko chhaat diye hota
aur suraj muskaan liye hota
par muthhi bhiche reh jaata hoon
kaidi hone ka shok manaata hoon.

10 p.m. Sleepy..Sleepy..Zzzzz..

10:30 a.m. I need a shower!! and I no more feel lonely.Afterall there are 'n' number of things to do being all alone and each single thing can be done in 'n' different ways.. Ahh. so n*n different ways of spending a day.Moreover when i think about people who spends years and years in koma,rishi/maharshi who spends decade doing tapasya and Ninja Kirigi who spent more than 100 years in loneliness,doing saadhna(for more info, read : Kirigi ka Kahar),I feel,I am in pretty well situation ;).
11:00 a.m. Just now a team of 5 doctors came to visit me.They have decided to start the treatment process.I will have to take 4 different type of Pills.3 antibiotics and 1 vitamin.
One of the antibiotic will change the colors of tears,urine..almost all secretions.I asked them if they are sure that I am having TB? They said,they are 'quite sure'.
For being 100% sure they will have to rely on results of culturing.Culturing of sputum takes 2 months.
But..on saturday you were supposed to get the result of sputum test.Right?I asked.
Doctor:Yes..probably we will have the result on saturday but anyway we will have to start the treatment process now.
I think they are qualified enough to decide how should they treat me and I think they will get no pleasure in making me stay here for long.
I am going to take a shower!!
11 p.m.The sputum test result is negative!!! Just now 2 doctors came to inform me.Negative result means that TB is not contageous but..
Yes,they want to perform one more test,PCR test for being 100% sure.! which will take about one week time!.So in best case , I will be released after a week!
I have decided to buy Nokia N70!By sunday evening,I will have it!
Zzzzz..zzzz!

It's 9 a.m.
Everyday I get my breakfast around 8:15 a.m. and at 8:30 a.m., nurse comes for measuring my body temperature, blood pressure and heartbeat.Something interesting happened today morning.A nurse came and asked me : "fare in bagno per pu pu?" I got little idea about what she is asking about, but still..
Me: "Cosa e pu pu?"
Nurse:"fare in bagno per..." (and then she patted her butts) "chatt chatt"
Me: ha ha ha..si!:D
Today morning when I woke up,I was feeling unusual,lazy,weak.To get over this feeling,i jogged in my room.Now I am going to clear my backlogs of yesterday.
11 a.m. Time is moving at good pace.After a short spell of lazyness, i started working!Presently reading an ebook : "Understanding Stocks".Meanwhile I got to know from Doctor that my blood test was "OK" and my "sputum" test is going on.I will get to know the result on Saturday and then they will decide about my stay and treatment.
I personally feel that 'may be' I am having TB but its not the contageous one.I have my own reasons for thinking so.Anyways, medical science relies only on laboratory tests and I will have to keep patience.
10 a.m. 1st March, yesterday night, I was too lazy to complete my diary entry.I took heavy dinner: curd,pollo,salad,verdure,pane,pasta and then crashed on bed.Before sunset, i saw movie "After Sunset".Salma Hayek..mm.. I love her.!
I dreamt about yatching,Holi and then I cant remember the last dream I saw.I have got an ebook:The interpretation of dreams by sigmund freud but till now this ebook could not make an entry in my "to do" list.First,I have to complete "Understanding stocks" and then only can think of any other ebook.

10:35 a.m. I have made 'to do' list!! Here it is:

27/2
1. How to play .rm/.rmvb on linux?
2. prison break - season 2 - part 1.
3. Italian learning
4. Daily Diary
5. Read - comics - kirigi ka kahar
6. Start reading - God of small things
7. Take Bath
8. Learn 2 songs -lyrics!!
9. Jan vikalp - 1 page
10.Linux game!
11.Explore Linux!!
12.Movie-Golmaal!!
13.Siesta!
14.Physical Exercise

Probably I will add few more 'to do's' and probably I wont be able to do everything I wish to do today.I like the feeling of being busy.I have to make myself busy..Busy reading novels,learning Italian,talking on phone..Yeh,there are ways of making yourself busy even if you have been imprisoned!
This place is like prison infact worse than prison in few respects ;) .I cant move outside to breathe fresh air.I cannot meet fellow prisoners.Anyways,I dont want to bother myself by thinking about what I dont have and what I can't do.I have to keep myself happy and rocking and I know how to do that ;)
11:00 a.m. I got some more information about my health!
Doctor told me that it will take about a week time to be sure if I have contageous tuberclosis or non-contageous.Earlier this day,my blood sample was taken for the HIV,Hepatitis A,B test.I will get the result by today evening or by tomorrow morning.
Its 10 p.m. I am tuning myself to my environment.Pretty much successful in keeping myself away from the feeling of loneliness.As predicted,i could not do everything which i had scribbed in 'to do' list.Tomorrow I will get to know about Internet Connection.Still,I dont know for how long I will have to stay here.It gona be between 1 to 4 weeks.
I am feeling sleepy...
goodnight!

26th February..At around 9 a.m. I got to know that I will have to spend next 2-3 weeks of mine in hospital.May be a month.I wont be able to go to India in last week of March.Ahh. all plans got cancelled.
By 12 p.m, I was in Hospital,in an isolated room.You can enter inside only with your mask on,but I cant move outside of the room.For atleast next 2-3 days,strictly not allowed to do that.Reason-test result for tuberclosis was +ve in my case and now I will have to undergo intensive treatment.
I informed Papa,Mummy and Meenal about the case.They strengthened my determination to enjoy this treatment period inspite of getting nervous.Still I am concerned about mummy,she would be worried.Moms are like that.
It's 6 p.m.I spent last 6 hours in quasi loneliness.Got checked up by Nurses frequently.Tomorrow I will be scanned for viruses.HIV,Hepatitis -A,B..
Facilities in this hospital are superb, only concern is loneliness.Lets see how i deal with it in coming days.I have my music pill,lappy,Italian learning book and some phone cards with myself.I am curious to know how I will spend my coming days.Some phone calls from friends were like lifeline.Nainy recommended me "Tuesdays with morrie"-by Mitch Albon. Meenal made me feel better with her sweet voice.Bhabhi made me smile and Bhaiya gave me strength.
Thanks to Pavan,Yogesh,Calee,Angshuman da and Somnath for visiting me.
10 p.m. I am not feeling sleepy ..but i should sleep.