make it happen, share your progress. Find your 43 things.

www.43things.com

..is stick-ons.
It simply works! We don’t like to fool ourselves though we often do that and once we stick a reminder on our desktop, it becomes little difficult to procrastinate.

GAAO WAALE :..lekin humre paas kuch aisa hai.. jo unke paas na hai aur na kabhi hoyega..

MOHAN : kya?

GAAO WAALE: sanskaar aur parampara..
haa bhai haa..
aur jab tak ee humre paas hai..tab takhumra koi kuch nahi bigad sakta hai..
humra desh duniya ka sabse mahaan desh hai..
haa bhai.. sanskaar aur parampara hamaari sabse badi taakat hai..

apko kya lagta hai?

hume to nahi lagta hai ki mohan ji is baat ko maante honge..
kyo mohan ji?

MOHAN : ji haan .. main nahi maanta ki hamaara desh duniya ka sabse mahaan desh hai..leikn hum me kabiliyat hai.. taakat hai.. apne desh ko mahaan banaane ki..
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hum log sirf aapas me ladte rehte hai.. jabki hume ladna chahiye..
asiksha ke khilaaf, bhadti aabaadi aur bhrastachaar ke khilaaf..
hum me se har koi .. har roj.. galiyo me sadko pe yahi kehta rehta hai ki.. is desh ka kuch nahi hone waala.. ye desh barbaadi ki or badh raha hai..
agar hum sirf yahi kehte rahe to sachmuch ye desh barbaad ho jaayega
aur iske liye aapko kuch karna hai.. aapko bhi.. sirf pancho ko nahi.. aap sab gaao waalo ko.. aap apni samasyao ke liye in pancho ko doshi thehrate hai lekin inki jagah par aake aap bhi wahi karenge..aur ye baat.. ye baat mujhpe bhi laagu hoti hai..
Dalit ,brahmin ko dosh dete hai..brahmin kehte hai dalit unke.. unki jaati ko bhrast kar rahe hai.. lohaar aur kumhaar , lala ke karj ko dosh dete hai.. zamindaar kishaan ko dosh dete hai .. lekin.. unka haq nahi dete to fir hum... hum mahaan kaise huye??
gaao me dikkate hai to hum sarkar ki or ungli uthaate hai aur wo kisi aur ki taraf.. hum sab... ek dusre ko dosh de rahe hai ..jabki sachhai ye hai ki hum sabhi.. hum sabhi doshi hai.. kyoki samasya.. hum khud hi hain.. mai..aap.... hum sab!

How can one just listen to these lines and can stay unaffected? Well.. I cant.Everytime I listen to these inspirational lines, my determination to work for upliftment of my village which is in west Bihar, grows stronger. I would like to know about your committments... and your answers to the question raised by Mohan Bhargawa.

Inside a house in Christiania..

Christiania is a partially self-governing neighbourhood of about 850 residents, covering 34 hectares (85 acres) in the borough of Christianshavn in the Danish capital Copenhagen

A turkish music director instructing his team
Location : Near Eiffel Tower,Paris

What you are seeing is one of the largest formal gardens ever created, with extensive parterres, fountains and canals, designed by André Le Nôtre
Had to walk around 6 kms all alone to take this pic. Zoom it to see palace of versailles.

Location : Marseille, France

Its Brussels.. when i arrived there, brussels central railway station was getting remodeled..there were huge cranes all around in main city as well.

at Madam Tussauds Museum, Amsterdam.
For more info : 3d laser engraving

Location : La Ramblas ,Barcelona

People yes..Mullahs no.. they are traitor, they must go!

Location : Sergels Torg, Stockholm

It seems that Daddy will have to step in water to get full view of the family..




Daddy made it!

People waiting for their turn to get a view and a chance to click Monalisa.

Location : Notredame, Paris

9th day of our eurotrip!
Shopkeeper is arranging his shop and rajdeep is on his spree


Location : Bank of river siene, Paris

Location : Louvre Museum ,Paris

Location : Notredame, Paris

2:25 PM me: Hello Bala!
2:26 PM balapillai: hi saurav -- be with u in a few mins
me: ok! :)
2:27 PM balapillai: back saurav -- speak
2:30 PM me: I am working for an ebook which will contain links to all important youtube videos, contacts,yahoo/google groups and other information necessary for organising and strengthening Dalit movement!
balapillai: ok -- the key is a few people
me: as you are the biggest knowledge bank amongst my contacts, i seek your guidance ;)
balapillai: Knowledge Management is about knowers
2:31 PM lots lots more than Knowledge
and in an Indian context it is lots lots more about attitude than aptitude
2:32 PM me: the ebook : D Book 'The Dalit Database' will target young undergraduates of Dalit community... the information will help them make right moves at right time!
balapillai: attitude --> brave, fast adapters etc
2:33 PM I am surprised that not a single dalit has taken the opportunity of joining me as I articulate the best Dalit argument
not a single one other than Amala
who joined me for another reason
does that say something Saurav?
2:34 PM what an opportunity to learn
what an opportunity to learn from a world class
me: In my case,its the unorganised lifestyle of mine which restricts me from devoting time to you!
balapillai: but why not others?
2:35 PM of what use is knowledge if it hits against excuses walls?
where there is little comprehension of the difference between excuses and reasons?
me: If they are not joining you, may be you need to change your approach..
balapillai: would a German say what you are saying?
agreed at prima facie levels
me: If they are not buying your products, you will have to make new marketing strategy.. right?
2:36 PM balapillai: agreed -- but wait
u see..
I would much rather join the effort of somebody who has a better "Dalit" product"
2:37 PM who has it?
u should be the one telling me
me: I have one!
balapillai: ok do u have a URL?
2:38 PM me: regarding details of my product?
no!
balapillai: there u go
I mean I take the energy and effort to organise URLs,
references
Orkut groups
phone calls
test the product with various groups
2:39 PM and it works with many groups
just not with Dalits
me: My product is in its infancy ! It will take little time to have a URL
balapillai: how can u say u have a better product if u have not tested it?
just put it in a Orkut community to start with
or an email
2:40 PM me: my status message is reply to this question of yours!
2:41 PM balapillai: doesn't help
I have a track recodr
record
in online combat
2:42 PM and I am talking about using the online world to educate and organise agitation.
together with some who bridge the online with the offline
I think u are focusing too much on the Knowledge part..
2:43 PM when we should be focusing on the "characteristics of likely early adopters in agitating with us"
I mean -- have u seen how effective a native in the jungle is without any manuals?
On how to hunt
me: :)
balapillai: how to build a house
etc
2:44 PM so
go ahead -- u do your thing
cos I have several wars to fight
and anti caste is not the superset of them
2:45 PM just happens that anticaste is a subset
and a subset I focussed on hoping to ally with Dalits
me: I strongly agree with your insight!
balapillai: I am now getting ready to shift gears
am going to work on the Sardars
me: will that help?
2:46 PM balapillai: I know the answers to you guys
but I will wait until u are truely ready to listen
when u guys are more conscious
eg I could be charging US$1000 for my consulting time
but would you grasp that?
2:47 PM and u would not be alone
me: If i ask you, what is the first thing you expect me to do .. If i say i am ready to join you with my team
what would be your reply?
balapillai: so lots of Knowledge is wasted
I would say -- be persistent.
2:48 PM Allocate a certain amount of time per week to synchronise strategy
to act on tactics
to learn
that is responsibility
in deed
2:49 PM so that word and deed are more congruent
and we work in a shared space
me: I would say, If till now you failed to tame any Dalit intellect , somewhere down the line you need little change in your approach.. Dalit intellects are afterall quite easy to be tamed
balapillai: I know they are face to face
2:50 PM me: they are agitated and determined to work for their cause
balapillai: so I know I would have have no probs in the ground
what surprised me is you not "getting it"
I mean if I am your contact with the most amount of KNowledge..
2:51 PM wouldn't it make sense for you to act on connecting me with those who can make the most use with me, before I die?
If Steven Spielberg offered his time what would you do?
2:52 PM me: I would blindly follow him!
In your case too, I am ready!
balapillai: have u talked to amala on the phone?
2:53 PM me: no!
balapillai: no probs
let's organise for that to happen
me: ok!
balapillai: we have to have voice contact
me: right!
balapillai: phone charges are nothing compared to teh value of our time
me: I am on 0039 3346140628
2:54 PM balapillai: ok -- will call u soon in the week
me: I would also like to give you some details of mine
I agree!
balapillai: go on
my phone is +61 2 9807 8545
me: Presently I am working as a Buyer in Danieli Engineering.
2:55 PM balapillai: listening
me: My work is to make business deals with Heavy Electrical Equipment suppliers of South East Asia!
balapillai: i c -- ok
me: Making deals with ABB, Siemens, Kirloskar,BHEL, etc..
2:56 PM balapillai: ok
me: just to give you an idea of my background
balapillai: i c -- ok
good
me: and I am more focussed on doing something for Dalit Media..
2:57 PM balapillai: show your persistence and folks will follow you
tell u what..
me: To come up with a rock band which will sing songs against caste and racial discrimination is presently my major objective
2:58 PM balapillai: i c -- super
are u a musician?
me: I am a lyricist!
a Photographer!
a Poet!
balapillai: ok
great
me: an ad man as well!
2:59 PM balapillai: i c
me: tell me!
guess,you were about to say something
3:00 PM balapillai: I'll have amala speak on the phone with u
and we'll take it from there
I too will call u
me: done!
balapillai: ok ttyl -- take care
3:01 PM see my scrap book
me: ok Bala!
chcking...
3:02 PM balapillai: get a feel for the kind of minds I attract, what energy and brains I might have invested to attract them, how I might take them to the next step.
Think of things like that
3:04 PM me: I am going through it.
3:05 PM one more thing..for raising money which way you prefer? Onlinetrading? referral marketing?
any other?
3:07 PM balapillai: I do it via putting large deals together
I have a merchant banking background
3:08 PM that is why I can afford to give away so much expensive otherwise billable time
me: for a novice.. what would you recommend?
balapillai: like right now I am putting together a listing on AIM
if I were u..
3:09 PM I would show your persistence to talenteds
me: I have invested in quest referral marketing... and now thinking abt sharetrading
balapillai: so if u show your persistence
go ahead try them -- u have to learn the hard way :-)
like I did
me: :)
balapillai: if u showed your persistence..
3:10 PM then your character will show
then I would recommend something that you would do because it is your passion
and together with me and my contacts and your time..
we would put a deal together
3:11 PM I have to sense how imaginative u are
3:12 PM before pessimism kicks in and you don't have enthusiasm
That which we cannot imagine we cannot create
3:13 PM me: :)
balapillai: and the worst part is Indians won't articulate the height of their imagination
you I suspect will be an exception
3:14 PM :-)
3:15 PM me: I will keep you updated with my moves and hope we will remain in touch through phonecalls as well!
balapillai: ok -- best to engage in the Quantum Inventions community
3:16 PM use it as our master hub except for the topmost of our work
the more we work openly..
the more we will be teaching potential recruits while we are working
3:17 PM one to one teaching, updating is very expensive use of time
imagine how Linux was created
me: :)
balapillai: and became the biggest competitior to the richest man on Earth
3:18 PM folks learn by swarming
like how ants learn while building ant hills
openly
without universities
without degrees
3:19 PM and the ant hills have air circulation systems
me: Bala, no doubt you are amongst best motivators!
balapillai: drainage systems
:-)
ok I have to run..
u too call Amala
me: ok! :)
balapillai: show your initiative even more :-)
me: give me his number
balapillai: take care
3:20 PM I don't have it offhand..
will msg u later with it
me: ok!!
bbye.. take care!

9TH MARCH

PRISON BREAK


10TH MARCH


PRISON BREAK


11TH MARCH


Probably I will be released tomorrow.Last two weeks were like a season of self realisation.Got a good break.

12TH MARCH

2:30 p.m. Doctor came in my room, without wearing mask.I smiled.
She announced the end of my isolation period.
10:20 p.m. I am packing my stuffs.Tomorrow morning I will move to mio casa nel bertoni. :)

8 a.m. I opened my eyes with nothing in my mind.Left my bed for I was tired of sleeping.
9 a.m. When my girlfriend feels sick of me, she yells :"GO TO HELL!!!"
Well she dont know what hell is.None of you people do.Hell isnt getting beat up or clit up or hauled in front of some faggot jury. Hell is waking up every god damn morning and not knowing why you are even here.Why you are even breathing.
7:30 p.m. Whole day I kept watching Prison Break.If they gonna make Indian remake of PB, Sohail and Arbaaz Khan would be best alternative for Michael and Lincoln.whadya think guys?
After taking my dinner, I dressed myself for stepping out.I went outside the hospital premisis and then did some free walking.. ahmm.. ahmm.. like some background music is already there...chewing happydent ..taking deep breathes and free walking.
"Friends,just doing rehearsal for tomorrow's show!!"

12:41 p.m. Tutto bene!! Everything is alright! Bronchoscopy was very simple.And now I am hungry.Have not eaten anything in last 18 hours.
3 p.m. I am loosing interest in watching movies.Infact no movies which are worth watching are left.
7 p.m. I am stuck up with prison break.8 episodes so far.Going pretty well.
10 p.m. Diary writing aint a fun thing.Not at all interesting.Nothing can match the fun of walking on lonely roads.Like this :

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of broken dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk alone

ahmm..Now i have just two things to do:
1.Wait for the result of bronchoscopy
2.Keep watching prison break till i get bored.
..Since 10 days i am stuck in a room..240 hours!! gawd ..these stats boils the blood in my veins!! Emergency...I am moving to bed!!

8:45 a.m.They are 'tasting' my blood!!!!.
Since morning they have taken 7-8 syringes of my blood and probably they found it
'tasty' and so will continue taking samples for their 'taste' in coming hours.
I called my mummy to get some consolation from her.While she was trying to console me, she herself was nervous.Aww you cute mummy..:-* .Moms are like that!!
9:00 a.m. Just now they took one more sample.eeeeeee!!!
7:00 p.m. Whole day they kept sucking my blood!!
10 samples!!
and tomorrow - bronchoscopy!!
Mummy,save me!!!

12:45 a.m. Its too early to start a diary entry and too late for moving to bed.Should i go for a nite-out?I smiled at word 'out'.It gonna be a D day!Wether I can move out or not will be decided today!
Pink Floyd is doing magic on me.I am getting spellbounded..hypnotized..and now comfortably Numb..and finally feeling sleepy...ZzzzZzzz
10:30 a.m Not feeling well! Having loose motion!Breathing problem.No clue what should I do.:(
Doctor will come to visit me within half an hour.
6:00 p.m. I got to know about PCR test result.
Test result is negative... but.. but i will have to remain here for ..say another one week!
All of a sudden Doctor's professor came into picture and he adviced her to not let me go so easily..;) .I have got a hole in my lungs.Keeping in mind my xray report and the fact that I am an Indian (a country where Tuberclosis bacteria has adapted itself to many medicines),they have decided to do some severe tests(like putting a narrow pipe in my lungs to take the sample of sputum).
The good news is that now I can move outside my room with a mask!This evening, I went for a stroll and I saw sunset :)
So..my friends..this life is all about hopes.Hope drives us.High Hopes.Dead Hopes.New Hopes.
So my friends..finally..I will have to be here for atleast one more week.On the darker side :I will have to face bronchoscopy, on the brighter side: holiday for one more week!!

P.S.:Nokia N70!!! None of my friends went to Media World last weekend and so.......

10:30 a.m. Its my 7th day!! i.e. i am here since last 168 hours!!aww my gawd,one week has gone.I couldnt realise.I lived as if :
I am young and life is long
and there is time to kill today
and then one day I found
1 week has got behind me
no one told me when to run,I missed the starting gun.
11:00 a.m. Its Sunday! also.. 'Holi'Day! Happy Holi to all my dear ones!
Yesterday night, before sleeping I got some ideas which can be transformed into a presentation.New things will join the league of 'pay back to society'.Hows the name 'Second Truth'?
I need a shower!!!
12 a.m. From somewhere I got the food for creativity today!After completing initial work for my forthcoming presentations: 'second thought' and 'Babasaheb Ambedkar', I tried my hands on 'Gimp' and here is what i came up with : 'cheguev-arya'.
12:45 a.m. Listening to Pink Floyd..and not feeling like sleeping!But the day has gone.I should start scribbing in diary entry of 5th March!! Awrite!Owkay!Babye!

10:30 a.m. Good news are coming up!!!
Everyday at 10 a.m. Doctor comes to discuss my situation with me.Day after tomorrow they will conduct PCR test on my sputum specimen.And by Monday evening,they will get the result.In best case, they will let me go to India for 3 weeks!!
These days, I am studying "Understanding Stocks".After finishing it, i will 'try' to read 'Davinci's Code'.

2 p.m. Reading is not my cup of tea.Gave up!
Long long time ago , I can still remember..how that music use to make me smile and i knew that if had more chance then i can make those people dance and may be they be happy for a while.
Whatever be the question,the answer is music!
Rightnow I am thinking about my friends.Wish i could be in touch with all of them.
Shantanu,where can i find you now?
KT,you left smoking..right??
Hassan,Lets meet!!
Rohit,tell me about your latest scandal!!
Navneet,yaar..want to hug you..know why? ;)
Sunny,saale tu Nandini pe line maar raha hai na? :D
Aashish,is se pehle ki jawaani khatam ho jaaye,chal kahi bandibaaji kar aaye dost!
Prabhat,do you remember the night we spent together? ;)
Anunay,kaisa hai re?? I need to discuss my investment stratigies with you!
Kunal,kaisa hai apna team?Kumaresh,Nikhil,Cspn,Mickey,Nishant?
10 p.m. Now I have got realplayer for Linux and I can watch all .rm files!!
Thanks to Pawan!!
ZzzzZzz!

10.a.m.Doctor told me that they will get the result of PCR test on Monday and they will take my blood test on Tuesday to examine the level of one of the prescribed medicine. If everything goes in my favour, i will be released in less than 1 week.Four new things have been added in my 'to do' list and they will be there for atleast 2 months:

ORE 6:00 --> ISONIAZIDE 200mg --> 1cp + 1/2
RIFAMPICINA 600mg --> 1cp
ETAMBUTOLO 400mg --> 1cp
PIRALDINA 500mg --> 1cp

ORE 12:00 --> ETAMUTOLO 400mg --> 1cp
PIRALDINA 500mg --> 1cp
BENADON --> 1cp

ORE 18:00 --> ETAMBUTOLO 400mg --> 1cp
PIRALDINA 500mg --> 1cp

ORE 24:00 --> ETAMBUTOLO 400mg --> 1cp
PIRALDINA 500mg --> 1cp

4 p.m. I just wrote a poem!! Here it goes :


kaidi se suraj ka vaada!

suraj ka mujhse vaada tha
aaj meri gaalon pe chamkega
par badalon ka uspe ghera hai
aur dur dur andhera hai
badalon ko chhaat diye hota
aur suraj muskaan liye hota
par muthhi bhiche reh jaata hoon
kaidi hone ka shok manaata hoon.

10 p.m. Sleepy..Sleepy..Zzzzz..

10:30 a.m. I need a shower!! and I no more feel lonely.Afterall there are 'n' number of things to do being all alone and each single thing can be done in 'n' different ways.. Ahh. so n*n different ways of spending a day.Moreover when i think about people who spends years and years in koma,rishi/maharshi who spends decade doing tapasya and Ninja Kirigi who spent more than 100 years in loneliness,doing saadhna(for more info, read : Kirigi ka Kahar),I feel,I am in pretty well situation ;).
11:00 a.m. Just now a team of 5 doctors came to visit me.They have decided to start the treatment process.I will have to take 4 different type of Pills.3 antibiotics and 1 vitamin.
One of the antibiotic will change the colors of tears,urine..almost all secretions.I asked them if they are sure that I am having TB? They said,they are 'quite sure'.
For being 100% sure they will have to rely on results of culturing.Culturing of sputum takes 2 months.
But..on saturday you were supposed to get the result of sputum test.Right?I asked.
Doctor:Yes..probably we will have the result on saturday but anyway we will have to start the treatment process now.
I think they are qualified enough to decide how should they treat me and I think they will get no pleasure in making me stay here for long.
I am going to take a shower!!
11 p.m.The sputum test result is negative!!! Just now 2 doctors came to inform me.Negative result means that TB is not contageous but..
Yes,they want to perform one more test,PCR test for being 100% sure.! which will take about one week time!.So in best case , I will be released after a week!
I have decided to buy Nokia N70!By sunday evening,I will have it!
Zzzzz..zzzz!

It's 9 a.m.
Everyday I get my breakfast around 8:15 a.m. and at 8:30 a.m., nurse comes for measuring my body temperature, blood pressure and heartbeat.Something interesting happened today morning.A nurse came and asked me : "fare in bagno per pu pu?" I got little idea about what she is asking about, but still..
Me: "Cosa e pu pu?"
Nurse:"fare in bagno per..." (and then she patted her butts) "chatt chatt"
Me: ha ha ha..si!:D
Today morning when I woke up,I was feeling unusual,lazy,weak.To get over this feeling,i jogged in my room.Now I am going to clear my backlogs of yesterday.
11 a.m. Time is moving at good pace.After a short spell of lazyness, i started working!Presently reading an ebook : "Understanding Stocks".Meanwhile I got to know from Doctor that my blood test was "OK" and my "sputum" test is going on.I will get to know the result on Saturday and then they will decide about my stay and treatment.
I personally feel that 'may be' I am having TB but its not the contageous one.I have my own reasons for thinking so.Anyways, medical science relies only on laboratory tests and I will have to keep patience.
10 a.m. 1st March, yesterday night, I was too lazy to complete my diary entry.I took heavy dinner: curd,pollo,salad,verdure,pane,pasta and then crashed on bed.Before sunset, i saw movie "After Sunset".Salma Hayek..mm.. I love her.!
I dreamt about yatching,Holi and then I cant remember the last dream I saw.I have got an ebook:The interpretation of dreams by sigmund freud but till now this ebook could not make an entry in my "to do" list.First,I have to complete "Understanding stocks" and then only can think of any other ebook.

10:35 a.m. I have made 'to do' list!! Here it is:

27/2
1. How to play .rm/.rmvb on linux?
2. prison break - season 2 - part 1.
3. Italian learning
4. Daily Diary
5. Read - comics - kirigi ka kahar
6. Start reading - God of small things
7. Take Bath
8. Learn 2 songs -lyrics!!
9. Jan vikalp - 1 page
10.Linux game!
11.Explore Linux!!
12.Movie-Golmaal!!
13.Siesta!
14.Physical Exercise

Probably I will add few more 'to do's' and probably I wont be able to do everything I wish to do today.I like the feeling of being busy.I have to make myself busy..Busy reading novels,learning Italian,talking on phone..Yeh,there are ways of making yourself busy even if you have been imprisoned!
This place is like prison infact worse than prison in few respects ;) .I cant move outside to breathe fresh air.I cannot meet fellow prisoners.Anyways,I dont want to bother myself by thinking about what I dont have and what I can't do.I have to keep myself happy and rocking and I know how to do that ;)
11:00 a.m. I got some more information about my health!
Doctor told me that it will take about a week time to be sure if I have contageous tuberclosis or non-contageous.Earlier this day,my blood sample was taken for the HIV,Hepatitis A,B test.I will get the result by today evening or by tomorrow morning.
Its 10 p.m. I am tuning myself to my environment.Pretty much successful in keeping myself away from the feeling of loneliness.As predicted,i could not do everything which i had scribbed in 'to do' list.Tomorrow I will get to know about Internet Connection.Still,I dont know for how long I will have to stay here.It gona be between 1 to 4 weeks.
I am feeling sleepy...
goodnight!

26th February..At around 9 a.m. I got to know that I will have to spend next 2-3 weeks of mine in hospital.May be a month.I wont be able to go to India in last week of March.Ahh. all plans got cancelled.
By 12 p.m, I was in Hospital,in an isolated room.You can enter inside only with your mask on,but I cant move outside of the room.For atleast next 2-3 days,strictly not allowed to do that.Reason-test result for tuberclosis was +ve in my case and now I will have to undergo intensive treatment.
I informed Papa,Mummy and Meenal about the case.They strengthened my determination to enjoy this treatment period inspite of getting nervous.Still I am concerned about mummy,she would be worried.Moms are like that.
It's 6 p.m.I spent last 6 hours in quasi loneliness.Got checked up by Nurses frequently.Tomorrow I will be scanned for viruses.HIV,Hepatitis -A,B..
Facilities in this hospital are superb, only concern is loneliness.Lets see how i deal with it in coming days.I have my music pill,lappy,Italian learning book and some phone cards with myself.I am curious to know how I will spend my coming days.Some phone calls from friends were like lifeline.Nainy recommended me "Tuesdays with morrie"-by Mitch Albon. Meenal made me feel better with her sweet voice.Bhabhi made me smile and Bhaiya gave me strength.
Thanks to Pavan,Yogesh,Calee,Angshuman da and Somnath for visiting me.
10 p.m. I am not feeling sleepy ..but i should sleep.

The love for writing, especially poems has something to do with hereditary in my case.Papa contributes to Dalit literature and baba,being a freedom fighter and associated with 'Arya Samaj' writes verses on 'desh prem' and society in general.

My saga for writing began at age of about 11 years when papa gave me a task of writing an essay on 'adhyayan'.He was more than happy to see a 10 page work by me.His compliments and motivation drove me thereafter.

After reading Papa's book: 'Kaaton ke bich',I realised that poems need not be beautified with alankar.All it needs is to have some content which can make long lasting impression.A poem should be capable of making a change,motivating junta,becoming a voice inspite of getting little applause for tukbandi and then getting lost in the mist of time.

To register my presence in the world of poetry, I sent my poems to Kshitij(a hindi quarterly published from US) ,Anubhuti-Hindi and started my own blog of Hindi poems : Aawaaj.
With Papa's help, my first book : 'Kshitij se aage' got published in August 2005.It was sweet surprise to get comments from Surendra Snigdh uncle and Ranjit uncle who are well known figures of Hindi literature of today.

Aawaaj is very much concerned with the plight of common man specially of those who suffers from social seclusion.Aawaaj is concerned with psychology of human being and is the mirror of the underground revolution which is going to change the social scenario of our nation.

Yesterday,i showed a video clip made by me,on the present state of Dalits in our country, to my friend.The facts datas and images in my clip shocked him.He was living with the prejudice that cesteism is no more practiced in India and social/economic status of Dalits has been improved to a pretty well position by Indian Government.
No wonder he is unaware of the ground reality.Afterall, who cares to enlighten people about the social and economic diversity which is still prevailing in our country?
Media?Times of India?Hindustan Times?The Hindu?Aaj tak? Star News?
None!!!They have no interest in this case.Rather they will like to focus on what Abhishek Bachhan will wear on his wedding day.
English men know much more about the social situation of our country than we Indians.Shame on you Indian Media!!!
Why the hell our mainstream media has kept its eyes closed?
Why the hell only 'feel good' news about our country are publicised?
Does government has no interest in preparing responsible citizens having courage to pay back to society?
I appreciate the spirit of our country because of which we made rapid economic growth in last 10-15 years but like you, I too dont want to forget about the problems which our country is facing.
Rich getting richer and poor getting poorer,will it anyway let our country run on the path of progress?
25% of population suffers from social seclusion and deprived of basic amenities,will our country ever be called prosperous?

what can be done?

Like you, I too want to think and talk about solution inspite of just highlighting the problem.Few solutions which I can think of are :

1.Sponsor education of a dalit child.An online way of doing this work :
www.dalitchild.com

2.Promote intercaste marriages to build a casteless society.

3.Promote affirmative action.If you are a recruiter, register your firm on:
http://www.firstequal.in/

4.Highlight the problem and let millions of mind think about the solution!Bombard the web world and ignite the minds with thought provoking articles.You are most welcome to join hands with me for building an alternative media.

"The purest form of love is self love"
(Not to be taken in dirty sense ;) )
God knows what has made me so self obsessed!!!I am obsessed with my look and with my ideas.I am crazy about clicking myself.
Story of panache started when a stubborn lad persuaded his dad for sony handycam.Poor daddy..I feel pity on him at times..;)..he always kept fulfilling all the demands of his pampered kid.
Truely Dad, I cant think of a single thing which I wanted and could not get from you.
so..SONY HANDYCAM DCR TRV285E..
990x digital zoom.. but alas! girls hostel was surrounded by a thick patch of trees.By..the..way there was not even a single girl in IIT Kgp for which i would have loved to use 990x facility.
P.S: Now,here in Italy,I can feel the importance of 990x digital zoom!!!:D
So..the purest form of love is self love and I started looking myself in handycam instead of using mirror.Clicking one pic after another,editing it with picasa,photoshop and then finally posting it on :

WWW.PANAACHE.BLOGSPOT.COM

In each move, each pic of mine,you can smell self-obsession.Thanks to my bro samyak and my adopted son Vishal,without whom Panaache would have been a dream for me.Thanks to Himadri for gifting me his tripod,act of self clicking became easier.Thanks to my girl friend,Meenal Jain,for not stopping me for this self-love thingy ;).I would also like to thanks all the regular viewers (if any) of Panaache for their wise comments and suggestions on my moves.

Presently I click myself with Nikon-S4.Room has been changed from C-108,R.P.Hall,IIT Kgp,India to 418,Convitto Bertoni,Udine,Italy but the act of clicking is unchanged.Self love is still alive!!!

This is wonderful!